I looked through our conversations when we used to be on cloud nine and in love, these were the times you told me how lucky you are to have a guy like me, how thankful you are because you never received such love i was giving to you and whatever happens, you will never let me go. The words you said mean everything to me and it stabs my heart, but to cry my heart out till the sun has set. The pain is too heavy to bear, the love i believed to be true and different was gone. We used to be over the moon, but the present tells the opposite. This is stupid of me to say but, I won’t deny the fact that i miss you so much. I love you, I still do. But somehow, I’ve come with the thought that I can’t do anything anymore, I need to let you go because it’s the right thing to do. I’ve finally decided to finally move on and this would be the last time I would cry over you because there were nothing left to hold on to and I can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to be held.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I was the reason why you let things end. I’m sorry for the terrible mistake I made, I never blamed you for deciding to end this because you were hurt and I understand. I only have myself to blame. But, i was hoping you would’ve understood, that I did it for us. I always feared the day would come, the day you will finally won’t take back the words you said. I’m sorry for the other things that have hurt you, for the things that made you cry, jealous and mad.
Thank you, I’m thankful that I met you because you have given me a temporary bliss. I laughed and smiled because of you. Somehow, you made me feel loved and beautiful in a short period of time. Thank you for the good days. the days we felt unstoppable like we’re flying high, when holding your hand felt like home, leaning on your shoulders made me feel secure and hearing your voice sound like the angels are singing. It was worth it, being loved and loving you. Thank you for making me realize how capable I am to love someone. You proved forever within number of days. You were the greatest and worst thing ever happen to me.
Goodbye. This will be the last time that I write you a message, I’ll accept the fact that some things are meant to end, even though I used to believe that you won’t let that happen. I did everything I could to make you stay, but I guess your life no longer include me because, you’re happy now and I can see that clearly. You already found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. I hope you find overwhelming joy best for the both side of you. It hurts because I’ve accepted the painful truth that I am just a distant memory now. I don’t regret loving you, but I regret is that I let myself believe that this would last.
I won’t forget you and the memories, I will always keep you alive in my heart. I’ll just get used to not having you in my life anymore. Deep within my heart knows getting over you won’t be simple. I need to stop loving you so I can start loving myself again. You were a painful blessing, but you were also a great lesson. I guess you’re just another chapter of my life needed to end. I still and will pray for your safety and happiness even though I’m in pain right now, I still believe you deserve the best. I hope you find everything in him that you couldn’t find in me. You will always be my greatest love, H.